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Oh Yes, Links

While musing on acorns, below, I keep forgetting to link to the very kind article by Mark Stryker in the Detroit Free Press all about me and my so-called spontaneity and slightly embarrassing apartment. Haha. And to thank Alex Ross for linking to same. It amazes me, actually, how my apartment has become a protagonist in my own life, or perhaps a crucial antagonist? And just yesterday, fatefully, a friend left a voicemail about a possible beautiful apartment in Brooklyn with a lovely garden and modern accoutrements, etc. etc. The plot thickens.

Other things:  I find myself enjoying Nico Muhly’s blog/webpagethingy, which almost allows me to forgive him for the unbelievably awful weather I had to endure to go to his Zankel Hall concert.  And kudos to Soho the Dog, who does brilliant cartooning, but also came up with my sentimental favorite music LOL, “Invisible Waldstein.”  Something about the look on Artur’s face.

Stars, Waves, Acorns

The sun cannot sleep, and neither can I. I am up (up!) at ungodly 5 am, wearing all brown for some reason, on the first post-solstice day. A friend from NYC emails: “how’s Michigan? can you see the stars?” Yes, there is one star I can see very clearly now, it’s only about 93 million miles away, and I was watching it come up over a line of trees from a paddle boat; also I was watching my waves disturb the water’s peace. I pedaled one small revolution-fraction; then watched the tiny effects of my tiny motion wash off in beautiful wavelets, barely changing the surface of the water: long wise shivers, like the ripple of an elephant’s skin. Then, when my troubles had dispersed, a genial breeze came and the surface in the early light became like a fantastic evanescent chessboard, like chess you’d play in the 15th dimension, ever changing squares, diamonds, vertices, an infinite complexity of motion. As the sun rose, the light became plainer and plainer and these effects vanished. (But they seemed quite real, for vanished effects.) I climbed the hill, brownly, and put on a pot of coffee (blackly); it was going to be one of “those” days.

First up: regrets. I should have written down how I was feeling the other day, because it was really—really—good and somewhat intangible. I had had a long day of practicing, mostly the fugue from the “Hammerklavier,” which by the way is not very easy, and every so often I would glance out mournfully at the overcast weather. A humid hot day of storms was lingering into a second day; but somehow, mid-afternoon, the storms broke, the weather released itself and a boundary was crossed. Wind blew, the trees sprung into life. I walked down to the lake edge and pulled off my shoes and sat at the end of the dock looking at the light and swallowing the new air. Retrograde inversions forgotten.

The wind was coming at me. The lake’s waves were coming at me, a line of them, perpetually replaced, bringing a wonderful water-smell. The sun filtered through the surface of the water, creating what seemed to me an array of golden hexagons over the weedy bottom. These hexagons made me very happy, and I watched them wash out, melt, and reform. (This is nature, thinks the New Yorker; what have I traded away? what Faustian bargain have I made?)

It struck me, this oncoming. I sat for an hour, only partly soaking in the sun; mainly, I was breathing. Nature sweeping herself clean, breathing out … I reflexively, instinctively breathed in. Yes, this is exactly it, I thought, what music feels like when it is going well. Either it is water coming in, or water going out. The waves floating away, consequences of your actions, or the waves resupplying you with yourself.

At the end of Leon Kirchner’s wonderful Sonata No. 2 for Piano (which I played just last night, from which I may still be recovering), the final two pages are unquestionably waves going out, receding away. They are tremendously beautiful pages, partly because they only reluctantly! relinquish the energies and confusions of the preceding material. Yes, beauty, but … There is a terrible sadness, in some ways, to this outgoing; imagine, if you wish, the whole preceding part of the piece as a paddling, the creation of waves: and then, at last, the paddler stops and looks at his waves disperse. They are faint echoes of his desires. He watches. However!, in the final eight measures, the amazing Kirchnerian touch; he won’t quite give up (never gives up); a last inspiration seizes him, a last extended dominant 11th chord, in tremendous dotted rhythms, gestures spread across the keyboard, summoning registers, space … after this last wave there is nothing but silence.

But if in music these outgoing waves can lead to tremendous sadness, nostalgia, cessation, what do the incoming waves do? For some reason, just free associating on this idea, the first things that come to mind are certain retransitions in Mozart, certain magical dovetails, where the loss of one idea, the loss of the dominant tension, its relinquishing to the tonic, death of the development, nonetheless becomes a sort of refueling, a wave which turns around on itself and smiles. Not, for example, like the recap of the “Waldstein” Sonata (thrilling, glorious, virtuosic, triumphant), in which the return becomes a kind of fetish or climax, the crash of a wave upon the shore of the tonic; but the sorts of returns where we find ourselves traveling a new path without really even knowing it. And then the next things that come to mind are the wonderful first entrances of soloists in Bach concertos: those first, propagating inventions in which the instrument arrayed against the orchestra must define its own voice against the common ground of the ritornello … Always, I have thought, these opening moments in Bach concertos have a kind of iconic creativity to them, a self-rejuvenating energy, a joyful skid from thought to thought.

Bach opening of E major Keybd Concerto

I’m sure readers of Think Denk must have their own ideas of outgoing and incoming wave moments in music.

As I said, I was very happy out there on the dock, breathing in. And later that night, I seriously had the option to write down some of my thoughts about it while it was still fresh … but instead (as so often), I turned on the TV. A newbie to satellite option orgies, I thumbed awestruck through seemingly thousands of channels before settling, amazingly, on “Ice Age: The Meltdown.” It seemed a saner choice than either “Ice Road Truckers” or “Special Victims Unit.” What drew me to “Ice Age” was not the humdrum main plot, but the subplot of a squirrel seeking an acorn. Simplicity itself. Oh, what travails the squirrel goes through to save its acorn, always again to be snatched away! I lay on the carpet and loved it, loved hIs love, his manic unceasing dedication (hmmm, relevance to musician’s life?). He defends his acorn, kung-fu style, from piranhas; he engages in animal trash talk with a hawkling; and finally, he seems to have the acorn in grasp, when a vast flood (“the meltdown”) overtakes him, endangering him and all the other characters. He climbs, bravely, an ice shelf, using the acorn as crampon (obsession as salvation), and is atop the ice shelf when the tiny acorn (illogically, wonderfully, Rabelaisian), wedged in the ice, forces open an enormous crack, splits the entire shelf in two… releasing pent-up flood waters, and saving the entire cast of boring main characters.

So the acorn subplot turns out to be quite pivotal, but in a totally nonsensical way, nice! The wonderful transcendence of the trivial. While the acorn’s symbolic resonance grows, the squirrel’s fate is unknown. As the main ploIceAge Squirrel w/Acornt clunked endward, I found myself wondering, ever more feverishly, what had happened to My Hero the squirrel? The movie makes us endure google-eyed, gag-inducing happily ever afters, ugh, but finally … We see the squirrel, staring up at golden acorn-crested gates, which open; he steps through them, finds acorns strewn liberally across pillowy clouds … Whoever wrote the music for this scene, I declare him or her a genius, one of the greatest living musical geniuses, and I refuse to back down from this; I want to commission an Acorn Heaven Sonata from whoever it is, immediately. But, having snatched up five or so of the innumerable acorns, he drops them all (fatal mistake?) upon seeing a giant golden Acorn in the distance, gleaming, glowing, colossal; the music becomes even more orgiastic; he prances across cloud-banks; it is a magnificent Love-Death of the Acorn …

But of course, at the last moment, when he is about to hold Acorn Utopia, one of the main characters “saves” him, removes him from whatever reality-peril he was in; for a stunned, sad, frozen moment, awakened from his greatest joy, he looks around the real world, cannot believe the disconnect, this last, most devastating tease. He turns upon his rescuer, and for the foreseeable, illimitable future, as far as we can see towards the horizon of time, he is hounding reality.

I clicked the remote; the TV went dark; I crawled into bed, soothed; I slept deeply and remember no dreams.

Dude!

One of the most curious, wonderful things about the “Concord” Sonata is the obsessive assault it mounts on Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony. Da-da-da-dum has become such an emblem, an audible logo, of classical music; the four notes express our whole tuxedoed, staid obsolescence, our desire to perpetuate ourselves (so they function, for instance, in a recent XM radio ad). Something about their sternness, their immediate minor-key attitude, the inescapable upbeat leading to downbeat, the timbre of the sustaining strings, full throttle … all of this captures perfectly the terminally uncool, that which in classical music takes itself too seriously, refuses to relax. (Don’t even get me started on Wagner.) Hierarchies, even patriarchies.

Was it possible for Ives to hear this work more freshly than we do now? Was it not yet such a victim of fame? Was it like hipster fashion before Urban Outfitters?

I don’t believe so; I think Ives picked it precisely for its cliché value (like he picked so many materials), and his reasons were complex. He is interested, apparently, in only the first four notes, in the germ; by the time Beethoven sequences it down for the second four notes, Ives is already bored by context, rhetoric, tonality’s rationalistic conventions. Bored, perhaps, by what Kundera would call the “spinning spiders” of filling in the space, of making sure the musical plot is continuous, not riddled with holes. (Ives loves meaning’s spread and leaps over gaps.)

One could argue Ives chose this motive partly to rescue it: from its context, and from stifling respect. Did he foresee what would happen to it? In one of the most thrilling passages from “Emerson,” Ives reharmonizes the famous motive; he takes Beethoven, and dirties him up, with a glorious bluesy intensity:
Beethoven’s Fifth Rewritten
However wild, Ives’ rewriting is partly gestural analysis. Beethoven’s motive “wants” to fall by a third; that is what it does—fateful unstoppable descent—but the rest of the movement seems to try to fight this categorical imperative through counter-ascent, some sort of recoil or opposed force (sequence, agitation, struggle). So, Ives plays with this notion: he allows the motive, in the first rewriting, to go down yet another third:

Beethoven Rewritten Again!

… which is like allowing the force to move past its target. And then, on Ives’ second “variation,” the motive reverses itself with a start, moving suddenly, surprisingly, up a third …

Third Rewriting of Beethoven

I love that leaping moment. One feels Beethoven’s idea—its third-ness—caged, growling, searching for a way out. In other words, the forces within it, its musical genes, are adaptable, fierce, looking for outlets in all sorts of directions; Ives paints a vector of raw musical force, freed from constraints, headed for the boundaries of the keyboard-world.

After you listen to Ives’ clustered version, try going back to the original! In these clustered chords, all the decorum of Classicism is stripped away, all the picayune perfection of selected notes. Ives manages somehow to make Beethoven sound harmonically unadventurous (not easy to do, illusory); but the raw energy of Beethoven’s notes is made more vivid. Though what Ives is doing is partly a distortion, a destruction, a mockery, at the same time it is something of an amplification, a homage: an act of devotion. You say to yourself: yes, that expresses something that Beethoven was after; Ives has expressed some “truth” about Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony, by taking him, so to speak, to the cleaners. (He did not, however, sue Beethoven for 65 million bucks.) Don’t we lowly performers, when we try to play those elemental Beethoven motives, try to compress an immense amount of meaning into them, to express something besides, behind, over and above the plain girder-like notes? Try to sweep their connotations in under them? Ives knows our pain. And he explodes this wanted, connoted meaning into fantastic, variegated improvisation; having ripped the idea out of its context, he places it in all unlikeliest contexts, gives it all the most inappropriate meanings. Beethoven’s motto becomes anything at all. Though it first appears, in the opening cadenza, in rather typical, tautological (Beethovenian, heavy) bass interruptions, it eventually morphs into a million beings, a million Beethovens: light elfin interjections, blurry Debussyean echo-ramifications, gospel-like exhortations, and most paradoxically of all, at the end of “Emerson,” when it comes the last time, the idea (this idea! this paragon of the declarative motive!) becomes a murky, pianissimo, tonality-disturbing force in the bass, the final third descent adding one layer more of tonal ambiguity to the coda’s ever-descending spiral of untangling threads. A final whispered hmm. Though Beethoven’s opening notes appear to say “I’m here,” appear to state and affirm, Ives knows that for all their bluster they are also a question, that they hide some deeper unanswerable insecurity, the movement’s lifeblood.

When I began this post, I wrote “assault” but perhaps that was slightly overstating the case. Ives is not “attacking” Beethoven. Did Ives foresee our vast information age, with memes, ledes, semes and YouTube? Once Beethoven’s idea is allowed to float free, it adapts itself, becoming viral (just as it has in real life … though an impoverished, commercial virus which always represents the same tired thing). At the very least, Ives is against Beethoven’s motive as a symbol of the past: no, he writes, these notes are not Fate knocking at the door; they represent humanity knocking at the door of the future, or of the Divine … of that which might be, not that which is preordained, or circumscribed. (Classical music, he suggests, must never be circumscribed.) Ives’ “attack” on Beethoven is a symbol of a great affection, in the same way that your significant other is allowed to tease you about certain things that the wider world cannot.

It seems a silly simplification to say that Ives is advising Beethoven not to take himself so seriously (though that is part of it). Nor is he trying to redeem or deny the cliché. The motive stands—hackneyed, well-worn—and yet Ives tries to sail away to heaven on it. Lurking, hiding in this paradox somewhere is some of the essence of Ives’ language, his greatness, his unique contribution. It is this contradiction, this problematic question of tone, the conflation of the ridiculous and sublime, that makes it and will make it difficult (on top of the dissonance, of course) for many musicians and listeners to “get” or love Ives, especially as the question of tone somehow calls into the question the whole nature of the “classical piece.” Am I to take it seriously, in my plush red seat in Carnegie Hall? (If not, why did I buy my ticket?)

Luckily, there is a perfect symbol of this whole aesthetic problem lurking here at the Great Lakes Chamber Festival. We have a stage manager or coordinator or whatever, let’s call him X, who is utterly and wonderfully unfazed and umimpressed by any of us. He is roughly 17-19, I would guess… The other day, without any hesitation at all, while I was practicing, he nudged me off the piano bench, saying “want to see something sweet?” Displaced, I affirmed my desire to see something sweet. He explained to me that there is this song Claire de Lune by Debussy which is way hard in the key it was written in. Looking at me plain in the face, guileless, delighted, he showed me how he transposed it down a half-step to make it easier. “I don’t know how you would play it the other way,” he said. He demonstrated the simplified first three notes.

But X’s greatest moment so far in the festival, in my humble opinion, was at the intermission of a concert, when Paul Katz was telling him to make sure the lamp on stage was securely placed. This was a serious issue. As X listened, Paul began to tell the whole story: that the night before, he was in the middle of the Mendelssohn Trio when the lamp began to fall and somehow he had to hold up the music stand with one hand and keep playing and fix the lamp at the same time (I’m paraphrasing, I forget the exact details) … all to prevent the lamp falling on his priceless instrument, and to prevent the piece grinding to a halt. Paul stopped, waited for X’s apologetic response.

“Dude,” X said, “that’s f*&#ing hilarious.”

The look on Paul Katz’s face (cellist of the Cleveland Quartet, eminent and beloved musician, coach and inspiration to so many young musicians) … priceless. He said nothing at all, there were golden drops of befuddled silence. I left the area before anything could sully the moment.

Is this a good metaphor for Ives? I’m not sure. But I think it’s a funny story. Da da da dum.

Back on the Road

I spent much of the plane ride staring at a mustache in the window seat. (I’m an aisle man, man.) It glinted and bristled. Clutching my dormant cell phone, I fell in and out of strange sleep, only to awaken, again and again, with my eyes magnetically held on that salt-and-peppery, yet deeply unappetizing, cluster of hairs … behind which the vast misty Earth unfolded, 35,000 feet away, blue and gold tendrils of a dawning, atmospheric Monday. Good God, man, I thought, what sort of person wears a mustache like that? It was an unholy visitation, the price of some bad bargain. He did not seem to be evil, otherwise; but his mustache spoke hirsute malice.

The evening before, I had consummated a solemn rite. With passionate resolve, I determined, in a two hour period, to straighten all in my life that was unstraightened, and then to fall into saintly slumber. Best laid plans. The straightening process left a tremendous rubble in its wake. Eventually the arteries of my apartment, always narrow, became harrowing; they required bypass surgeries that they would not get. Climbing my way between Piles of Music Past and Piles of Music Yet to Come, between J Crew catalogs and long-lost paystubs, mired in expired to-do lists, I was attempting to incarnate in my suitcase some sort of condensed, intense microcosm of my next trip’s state of mind, an ur-wardrobe which would land in Detroit without incident and set the stage for .. who knows? I ransacked my worldly possessions for these perfect items. It appeared as though I was burgling my own apartment. After a time, only the suitcase was clean, pristine, contained, zippable; while every other square inch of the space descended into chaos. Somewhere in there, I discovered something that I should have known for a long long time.

I was trying to pack up my phone when I realized it.

My cell phone charger and my laptop charger had slowly, over the last months, become inseparable. They were locked below my kitchen table, I noticed, in a desperate embrace, intertwined black and white ivy, surging with 120 volts. I made a desultory stab at separating them. But they were whorled, gnarled, a spectacular, Escher-esque accumulation of spirals receding into what passes for infinity in the Greystone Hotel. Due to the hazards of living in my proximity, they were both sprinkled liberally with coffee grounds, and the caffeinated residue seemed only to bring them closer, to unite them in squalor. A hushed conference over my kitchen table ensued: me, my chargers. How could I break asunder what God had brought together? In chaos I had found love. I decided to do the right thing. We had a Commitment Ceremony. Some Bach was played. I read them some short passages from Emerson about Love and Friendship, and some bleak poems of Montale (for perspective, realism, pragmatism) and then, after a moment of silence, they were united in perpetuity. I cried a few bitter tears. Chargers grow up, they’re around for a while, but eventually, if you love them, you have to let them go…

Even the man at the security line the next day seemed to acknowledge the ineffable power of love. He pulled out my computer charger to run through the machine again. He only wanted the one, but the other clung desperately, following its mate out of the bag and onto the belt. He tugged briefly, looked at them, looked at me, he held the seeming mass of spaghetti out at arm’s length. I am sure, at that point, he saw the pain on my face, and, sighing, he ran them through the machine together. Even in X-ray vision their passion was magnificent, full-blooded, corporeal.

While all this emotional stuff was taking place, I was often on the phone with friend L. Other desperate situations had presented themselves. For instance, another friend had texted the following:

Con lovin’d knuc gluawt

What could it possibly mean? L and I debated at length. Its author was unavailable for comment. “Lovin” was clearly the only comprehensible segment, but perhaps it was a red herring? Anyway the apostrophe-d somewhat confused the grammatical sense. (Meanwhile: love was in the air, my newlyweds were happily consummating in the privacy of my bag what they had been too shy to express out in the open.) What was “gluawt”? I felt this was the key. But our various theories failed to pan out…

This text seemed the final, devastating enigma of the last two months, which I had spent more or less at home, in an attempt to have a “routine.” Many peculiar things had happened—odd changes and unexpected events—but there were frequent visits from the unwanted familiar. What did I discover in this routine but a self-limiting circle? I had spent a spectacular amount of time with my piano, and now we eyed each other warily. We too had our commitment ceremony, each day. Most importantly: yet another significant period of my life had elapsed in which the list of things I had intended to do bore little resemblance to the things actually done. My relationship with the organized agenda was still contentious, seemed fraught, perhaps, with “glauwt.” I asked L in desperation, throwing socks and receipts into scattered piles, “What’s to become of us, what are we to do with our lives?”

“Whatever it is,” she said wryly, “we’re already doing it.”