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Thought Experiment, continued

[To all new readers: the following is the sort of long, laborious, but utterly unsystematic analysis that sometimes happens when I get all excited and some of you clearly find this all very boring and incomprehensible and some of you seem to enjoy it. So there.]

Why, oh why, was I so mean to Tchaikovsky? I must examine my own motivations: I’ve been a bit overworked lately? I missed San Francisco like some sort of windy Xanadu? … Whatever the reason, I apparently needed to trash Tchaikovsky in order to make delicious love to Brahms, which is unfair to both (and undesirable to at least one). I could have so easily detoured around the snark and taken a leisurely drive in lands of tender admiration.

And yet the snark signifies? There is a certain eagerness-to-please in Tchaikovsky … a lurking “look at me!” This is, perhaps, why I find myself glowering at him like a teacher’s pet, withholding the praise he richly deserves. It is not the “look at me” of a confident narcissist, of Strauss for instance; it is more desperate. Occasionally you see this desperation straight in the face, unconcealed, unsublimated (i.e. undeveloped, not subjected to typical musical rigor), and it makes you want to cry, the naked neediness, and then Tchaikovsky is truly, utterly lovable. Also, when Tchaikovsky is dreaming or dancing, and not trying to solve or surmount life’s problems: I love him then too.

Anyway.

What I really wanted to convey was the quality of the Brahms Motive. Its haunting, lifting recurrence. Its message-carrying allure. (A carrier pigeon of promise and loss.) And I want to talk more about all the meaning and feeling that gets swept up in that, in the dance of the Motive through the piece.

I misprinted the Motive hideously in the last post; it is not JUST a dotted rhythm; it is a dotted rhythm with a little hiccup, like so …
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… and to omit the little rest in the middle is like taking the gills out of a fish and throwing it back and saying “swim.” The rest is the breath of the idea, its life force. (And the idea is the piece’s life force.) The silence acts as a hinge: with one act, it holds the idea back and then impels it forward. The quickstep of the last two notes is a response to the stoppage of the first—a continuation, not merely of sound, but of sound “against silence.” Breath is framed between notes; the notes hold the breath in between them like the skin of a bubble, like our skin holds us in.

We have a story in three phases (in three movements) … and the dotted motive, with its bubbled breath, is the code, thread, cipher connecting them. Like the key to a code, it matches one thing to another; it says: this is the same as that. (A musical equal sign.) It attaches personhood, or at least identity, to moments of music, and drags this personhood around, reluctantly, from place to place … (repetition in music is so much more than repetition).

Phase one of this story, the first movement, is to my mind simply good times. What could be more of a good time than the opening of Brahms G major Violin Sonata? The pianist is a gentle giant down there in the low register, with pillowy, gorgeously voiced fundamental chords: pure triadic happiness, over which the lighter breath of the violin skirts and curves. Brahms’ picture of happiness is musical, of course (happiness for a composer is good voicing)—something close to the ideal of accompaniment and melody. Such “ideal textures” abound in the first movement—for instance, the second theme also—and evoke a bubble of youthful, uncomplicated pleasure.

The dotted rhythm, in the first movement, is essential to—the code for—this pleasure. I hear it in the first movement as a seedling for a waltz (dance of pleasure). It lends the second theme a tentative waltzishness …
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and then returns in a totally “out of the closet” waltz:
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Brahms displays such a combination of simplicity and ingenuity with the dotted rhythm, such a faith in it … he allows it to be fruitful and multiply. First we have single dotted rhythms:
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Then a lovely hemiola (Brahms just can’t help himself!), a chain of three dotted rhythms:
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Then an incredible profusion, dotted rhythms “gone wild,” letting loose at Spring Break (the piece was written in the springtime of 1879, let us not forget!):
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Bounding, unstoppable… as if drunk on dottedness … the rhythm, which is “properly” kind of a halting, stopping force, becomes a flowing river, an obsession: a connective, collective rhythmic joy. The world of the first movement owes itself largely to this free-floating dotted rhythm, which gets caught up continually in a sort of Brahmsian 3-step, a simplicity-involvement-extrication process: he alludes to the waltz, or simply to the dance (step 1), which then gets snared in more complicated compositional webs (step 2), which then inevitably breaks out to dance and sing again (step 3).

The Motive, in its basic form, it is all on the same pitch. That is, it is somewhat neutral to the question of pitch; it adapts itself to circumstances. But it is not neutral about rhythm; it takes on, by choice, at its core, one of the fundamental dialectics of music (especially German Music): the question of upbeat/downbeat. The Motive has a kind of impelling self-direction towards the last of its notes, which “seems to be” the beat. It is a perpetual upbeat, perpetually implying an elusive downbeat. This is part of what the “code” is about.

Recipe, perhaps, for a dull code. In much German Music, the upbeat/downbeat hierarchy can become tiresome, heavy, undesirably fraught: an eternal, marching, everything-goes-to-this-ness. Yes, es muss sein. Once upbeats become the beat, they die a little rhythmic death; downbeats are the corpses of living upbeats … (The grave is the last downbeat of our lives, in a manner of speaking.) Many pieces—and performances—die horrible deaths from too many downbeats. But Brahms is aware of this issue; his code is constantly shifting; the last note of the dotted rhythm is met by a million little accidents, which lighten or rub against the grain of the natural tendency, the natural implication … which make the downbeats feel less “down,” less of a necessity.

In the first movement the dotted motive mostly runs with the poetic flow, conforming to its “proper” upbeat role … the dotted rhythm leads, it lifts; it comes at beginnings … it is a balloon lifting the phrase off the ground … that is, its place in the PHRASE corresponds metaphorically to its relation to the BEAT. It is almost always a prefix: an inhale, an invocation of a musical sentence to come.

But in the second movement, phase two of our story, the dotted motive does the opposite … It is almost always the suffix of the phrase, the Last Word. It closes things, weighs them down (whereas in the first movement it was so lifting, and lifted). Watch, each phrase in turn ends with a dotted rhythm:
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and the whole movement ends with dotted rhythms…
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And in the contrasting section of the second movement, the dotted rhythm becomes a funeral march:
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… which is just about as weighty and closing a genre as you can summon up (downbeat as death, indeed).

Let’s revisit the idea of the motive as a cipher, a secret code. The dotted idea keeps reappearing, it is patterned, it suggests some recurrent meaning which can be de-ciphered. But its constancy is played against serious semantic uncertainty. In the first movement, the dotted rhythm codes “waltz” and “swing” and “lilt,” perhaps … Whereas in the second movement it codes “final” and “cadence,” and “march” and “trudge” and even “death,” if you want to get dramatic about it. The motive encodes radically different things, though it is always (infuriatingly, wonderfully) the same. Unbending selfness of the motive, endless variety of implication: immovable object, irresistible force.

In both movements I think the dotted rhythm feels “impelled” or “impelling.” In the first it impels us to enthusiasm, to further circles, to invention and dance. In the second it impels us to the cadence, to the tonic and down the line, to the march (fate) …

Here is, I think, Brahms’ master stroke: in the last movement the motive takes on a third guise. This guise is enigmatic, unreadable—though pervasive, evasive. We hear the Motive everywhere; the pianist, particularly, cannot seem to stop saying the Motive over and over again, obsessively, the left hand leaping over the right in order to reiterate it at different octaves:
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It is here we learn that the Motive is a haunting, magical seed, which ends up, as the story unfolds, growing backwards into the past, blossoming in reverse. (The piece is written to impel us backwards, it is a time machine.) In fact it’s like a detective story—aha!, the last movement did it!—this material, the melancholic theme of the last movement, is where the Motive “came from.” Retrospective understanding. For Brahms formed this Sonata, clearly, from the Song “Regenlied,” which begins (no surprise!) with the dotted idea, with our Motive:

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Yes, it dawns on you … the whole Sonata arises from the last movement, which arises from the song, which springs from the dotted rhythm, which arises from the poem (a chain of derivations without end) …

I have heard some people call the third movement a “problem movement.” But it’s here, precisely, at the end, that we probe to the source, the “why” of the motive, and of the whole piece. And here, particularly at the source, the motive is reluctant to describe itself, to pin down its own meaning. This magnificent reluctance, this secretiveness, is the so-called problem; and indeed if you don’t like enigmas or cracks between meanings, this movement could be a problem for you. But then you shouldn’t listen to it.

Because it is here that Brahms paints a whole new matrix of possible meanings of his dotted breath. There is the dominant pedal in the piano, the eternal sad call and response of the D’s over the raindrops (going nowhere, can’t think of any escape), and then there is the ecstatic reworking of the slow movement theme with excited dotted rhythms (surging somewhere joyfully), and then there is heaven as an unbroken chain of dotted rhythms (again going nowhere, why leave when things are so good?) …

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And finally, because heaven is simply boring, or unsustainable, there is this last yearning sequence of dotted rhythms going up by fourth…lasthurrah.jpg

Where this is going, we won’t return from. If you have not spilled over into tears by this point, you are heartless—here, where Brahms (at last) shows his hand. Here, perhaps, the dotted rhythm becomes faintly Schumannesque (another code, another vanishing autobiographical meaning?): new harmonic leanings, new tenderness. Contagious tenderness passing from piano to violin.

In Mahler’s 9th and Schubert’s Winterreise, to take two extraordinary instances, we have nostalgic works which begin from “game over,” from a condition of preexisting loss, where everything—happiness, life, dreams, hope—has already evaporated from measure one, and we merely count our disintegrating losses. But most composers of nostalgic pieces take the more traditional route: they create worlds of happiness in order to destroy them. This seems, perhaps, mean-spirited? But then the third, unpredictable step is applied, a door is opened onto neither happiness nor despair. An emotional note is sounded on a foreign clef, undermining and questioning the whole previous vocabulary and proposing a more meaningful, but even more evanescent understanding, which perches like a bird on the last note of the piece and flies away never to be heard again. In other words: the place where you arrive at the end of Brahms G Major Violin Sonata cannot be summoned to mind or soul “on demand.” It cannot be remembered. It is perishable, even as an idea. It is the precarious, extraordinary result of all the conflicting codes and messages of all the preceding notes, the message hiding behind the Motive which only tells you, at that moment, what it might have been. Someone is there working through the night for you, deciphering this code, your code, understanding your whole life, and they pass a final translation to you on a piece of paper which …

Liaison

Sometimes talent sweeps, nay, whisks across our lives like a well-oiled Swiffer, leaving the twisted surfaces of our minds polished, smooth, and reflective. We observe ourselves in the mirroring perspective that results, and say “I’m not half bad!” or “I really ought to get a haircut,” or “What the hell are you looking at anyway?”

I have come across such a talent, in a strange corner of human endeavor. This talent streaks like a scruffy comet across the sky, or at least along the streets of Richmond, Virginia. He is a once-in-a-generation supernova of desperation, inspiration, and venue; he is surely only a flash, an ephemeral blossom, but what a flash!, a talent which will stride off to other planets and professions leaving us heartbroken, comet-starved, searching our dark boring constellations and finding only the usual revolving stars and the grating headlights of society’s grinding Hummer behind us, honking at us, telling us to act or be crushed.

At most engagements, from the moment you arrive to the moment you are sent away (often with sighs and moans of relief), you are assigned to an Artist Liaison. This is the person who Sees To Your Needs. The brilliantly evil element in the whole situation is that as soon as you have a person who Sees To Your Needs, you dream up whole forests of needs you never imagined: you need needs.

Most Artist Liaisons are friendly, delightful, helpful; they are agents of function, smiling wardens of the invisible prison of your stay. But most do not possess, to my mind, that particle of job-specific genius required in order to make the Liaisoning Act into a Work of Art. Until today, I believed that Duane, in San Francisco, with his interspersed, wry observations of life and various artists, delivered with understated but razor-sharp simplicity, was the absolute greatest Artist Liaison Artist (and this still may be true). However, I have met someone who made me reconsider the entire Notion of the Artist Liaison itself, who rattled my (mis)conceptions to their core:

I knew from the very moment I first walked out of the hotel lobby with Prabir that something was afoot. In place of the typical sleek sedan, I saw Prabir casually and without comment mount a giant white unmarked van. I hauled myself and my messenger bag up into the passenger seat of this Great White Whale with some difficulty. I opted for no smart remark, suspecting a prank. But this was no prank: this van is in fact a main mode of transport and haulage for Prabir’s band (Prabir and The Substitutes) and is quintessentially a band van. Thus the stuffy classical artist must immediately confront his casual, beloved nemesis, Popular Music. (I fantasized myself as a hip band member, considered sad impossibility of same, etc. etc., wept and wailed, became resigned, sighed). The van’s floors are well-scuffed and gravelly. The transmission hiccups after each Stop sign; each restart seems a last sputtering hurrah. It takes bumps with shuddering but joyful lack of aplomb, and this pianist bounced wildly, a plaything of potholes, with my coffee flying perilously and yet grasped like the last lifejacket on Earth.

Prabir, astride his derelict Moby Dick, understands, already—after only working a few weeks!—the absurd existential fix of the Artist Liaison, who is supposed to take whatever crap the cranky, stressed-out artist is dishing out, and come back smiling. We discussed as much in our very first meeting, which was, I realized, a Brilliant Maneuver for letting me know (in the guise of “conversation”) that if I thought about throwing any diva fits while I was there, well, he already had my number. And so at the very cusp of my role, just at the wings of the stage, this actor was given a new script. You see: this Artist Liaison was deeply reconsidering the very Meaning of the Liaison; he was Liaising on a meta-level (!), making me engage not just with him but with the expectations deeply encrusted in the situation; he made me want to rewrite this old story, and do something revolutionary, in which perhaps the Artist would help the Liaison? I wanted to beat him at his own game, but I knew that even by doing so, I was falling into his trap.

Conversation with Prabir was like no conversation with any other Artist Liaison, perhaps in all of history. Prabir eschews conventions of commuting chatter. He would tolerate none of the tried-and-trues: “where are you from?”, “where did you go to school?”, “what was it like being brought up by wolves?” (etc. etc.) Each trip to rehearsal was conceived somewhere between a vision quest, an indie rock song, and a therapy session. What realms of life, love, art, and loss did we not visit?

I discovered that Prabir is immensely gifted at concise summation. He is undaunted by cultural weight. To give just a few examples:

Prabir on Beethoven:

He couldn’t hear, and he couldn’t get laid.

Prabir on Hemingway:

You know, he’s kind of an old bastard, but I appreciate his honesty.

Prabir on Radiohead:

Who would you rather listen to: John Cage or Beethoven? Well of course everyone’s going to say Beethoven. End of story.

Prabir on Jeremy Denk:

Your head man. Your head is to Beethoven what Pete Townsend’s arms were to the guitar.

A recurring topic between us was the Jerry-Springer-ish marriage of love and art. Love versus art, art making love, love perverting art, art telling love to get a life. I confessed to Prabir that the last time I had come to Richmond to perform, I was in the process of Losing a Love, pretty spectacularly, which seemed, ironically, despite sleepless nights comprised of long, unimaginable phone calls, to make me play better than usual. Pathetically I seem still to be proud of myself for playing well that day, and thus to be able to disassociate myself from the simultaneous act of Screwing Up My Life. Prabir, as always, was prepared with the money quote:

Dude, what’s more important … your personal happiness right now, or the individual creating something unique to the individual?

As Prabir let this question out into the humid atmosphere of the van, I couldn’t help staring wistfully at him, and at cloudy Richmond beyond, shuffling by. He was actually discoursing on the relationship between art and personal woe, just before explaining that he had to stop for gas.

Confronted with timeless dialectics, Prabir does not present a fixed, stultified view of the universe. He told me the first day that he had decided to forsake the pursuit of women for a time:

I have a flirting problem. You know, whenever I’d go out, like even now, say, if I saw that chick there (he points to a girl crossing the crosswalk in front of us) I would be like “nice boots, where you from?”, and then I’d be showing off, like, “you want Symphony tickets, I work with the Symphony, I can get you Symphony tickets” … and it would all lead to heartache…

So now I’m doing a lot of dude time, building a wall in my apartment, stuff like that.

(Yes, I mused, Symphony tickets do often lead to heartache.) Interestingly, the very next morning Prabir confessed to me that

I met this girl last night at the bar who was kind of cool and we kissed

But then, ten minutes later, there were second thoughts …

She just texted me, like, “good morning,” and I’m not sure I want to get into all that…

But by the end of rehearsal, two hours later, Prabir said:

… we gotta book it back to the hotel because i’m having lunch with that girl …

By the same evening, however …

I’m not sure if I’m ready to be a marionette.

And on and on Prabir went, his cosmos shifting and spinning, a multifarious mosaic. “Prabir,” I said, “you are a man of conflicting appetites, much like myself.” He agreed; there was some odd common ground between us. Both of us wanted nothing to do with the usual conversations that were taking place in sedans all over the world, where artists were being shuttled to their orchestral rehearsals and settled in warmup rooms, and asked what they needed, but never what they really needed. This part of the day, too, needed to be lived with gusto, observed; we tasted uncertainty, felt flux on our palates, and feared not the big issues; we strode among them like giants, measuring our lives—despite van, locale, rain, weariness, everything—amidst grand schemes and grand themes.

Prabir had an unusual view of the Symphony, above and beyond its propensity to heartache. If I can paraphrase:

Going to the symphony is a chance to be intimate without the actual experience of intimacy. You can lean over and say “isn’t that great,” you can whisper in their ear, get close to their ear, their hair, or just touch their arm, or they might graze your arm …

I’ll never forget this one moment in reading class, when I was 13, when this girl leaned over and whispered in my ear “I hate this book!” and the word book resonated through my body and I was like what’s going on? … my body’s not supposed to feel like this … just the word book ? …

… the lightest touch is the best kind of touch.

And that evening, when I sat to play the first propitious, magical chord of Beethoven’s 4th Piano Concerto, I imagined Prabir and some girl in some dark corner of the hall, and her arm almost accidentally falling on his … I imagined the whispered word “book” shaking off its meaning like a bad dream and becoming just a sonic thrill.

It is too bad I cannot tell you here, on the blog, all the wonderful stories Prabir told me on our trips, that he somehow crammed into our brief encounters: How Prabir’s Father Predicted That A Girl Would Break Up With Him, or How Prabir Came To Have A Drink Named After Him, or how to get a date to progress smoothly from G to PG to PG-13 to R … (start with Scrabble!) I can only suggest you get yourself booked to play with the Richmond Symphony, as soon as you can, before he gets fired or moves on to greater things. Or, if you are not a performing musician, perhaps just go to Richmond. According to Prabir, there are a number of bars there, and “they all have the same five people in them, and I’m one of them.” So a Prabir should not be hard to find. Why is it, then, there are so few of them?

Gratitude

Allow me to express my immense gratitude to Alex Ross.

If you are coming to the blog from the print edition, the posts he mentions are

Psalm and Dissertation

and

Pulitzer

and

Release 

Please feel free to browse the archives or use the slider, above… (”Older”) to dip at random into the past. I get scared when I do this. Sometimes it feels like some other Jeremy Denk wrote all that stuff.

Thought Experiment

As a performer, I would like to play Every Piece Ever Written with The Most Conviction Ever so that people run weeping from the hall and change their lives and poverty ends and rainbows and leprechauns come sprouting from the earth and rivers run pink with Cosmos that never give you hangovers. But apparently this is unrealistic.

This last weekend, I found myself (on Saturday) playing the Tchaikovsky Trio and (on Sunday) the Brahms G major Violin Sonata. Now, these are two Romantic pieces that should never (ever!) be on the same program. I would say: even on the same weekend, it feels pretty dubious. They don’t make each other look good; they’d sneer across intermission at each other. It would be like casting Laura Linney and Al Pacino as lovers. I think it is clear that, of those two, Laura Linney would be Brahms (I loved her in You Can Count On Me, I’m a sentimental fool). Actually–now that I think of it–a biopic with Al Pacino as Tchaikovsky would be something to see. The subtlety and sensitivity he would bring to the question of the composer’s private life …

Tchaikovsky (like Pacino) has faith in that which is proclaimed (passionately enough, strongly enough, with inspiration); Brahms (like Linney) has faith in that which is hidden (craftily enough, subtly enough, with inspiration).

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